my shoulders heave as my breath grows raspy. what's done is done. it's over. i can't breath. it finally sets in. alone. utterly, disparingly alone. we're done, and i'm scared. i don't know what of. there's nothing left to say. unspoken words will remain in the open air as i learn to hate myself to another degree. why?!?!? worthless. everything. meaningless. nothing. there must be something. cold. just cold. i think i've died.