ever feel like hiding from the world?
to close your eyes and melt away into that questionable soul?
feel the darkness of your heart slowly creep out over your skin
stretching over every pore of your being
reaching toward your limbs pulled by your own misery
to let that darkness of dispair envelope you whole and disappear?
what relief

my body aches to bleed
it wants to feel that dark maroon sliding carelessly down its hands
slowly
my eyes want to watch the pain slip out slowly
each drip increases the pleasure, the euphoria, the satisfaction of knowing the end is near.
and my lips long to curl up in that last, final arrogant smirk of success