my first concert (-_*)

written on Monday, May 8, 2006

It's been awhile... everything's been happening all at once. It feels like I have all the time in the world and yet, time seems to be traveling at a pace too fast for me to catch up to.

Where did it all go? The childhood innocence, the teenage memories... too fast, too fast. I suppose you have to swap one with the other. Freedom from burden for worries with age. Nothing in life can be all perfectly good.

I've travelled this road one too many times. I'm tired. Maybe it is with age that you enjoy the simpler things in life. To take life slower, to just enjoy the day, the sun, the night. To think the excitement of life is no longer appealing at age 22. Who am I to say such things? Maybe when you are just content at basking in the sun's warm glow. Everything seems so much brighter, clearer, sharper.

The end of me is the beginning of me. I've taken this road one too many times. Find me. I'm lost. Why is that so hard to do? Where did I go? I'm still here, aren't I? Maybe I've sunken in too deep now. Break me out. Wake me up from my slumbering heart, so I can fill my fingers and toes with that soul I've been accused of not having.

Tick away clock, I'm not afraid of you anymore.