it won't go away, no matter what i do, no matter how hard i try. i am demented. endless loops of everything. go away, go away. i don't want you here, here in my perfect world of nothingness. why do you keep returning? you are not invited, you are not welcome. leave me to me. leave me to my own savagery.

things i hate about myself:

too much pride to spare.
endless loops of depression
being a whore to my depression
attention whoring
trivializing matters that are important
blowing up trivial matters
know-nothing-smart-ass'd-ness
show-boating
passionless
cold-heartedness
contradiction
uncontrollable emotional outbursts
big mouth
lazy procrastinator