from 'me' to 'you'

Why did i have to break your heart? i long for you. my soul aches for you. everywhere i turn, i am reminded of you... but that's all that it is now, just memories. i'm hurting and its because of you. you. the one that i hurt. i know that it is for my greater good. all this pain is for my greater future. how? i don't know. i just know that i made the right choice. but how do i know? i don't. i love you so much. in my heart of hearts, i know that i love you. but why? why would i do something so terrible to someone i love so much? because i am a terrible person. i can't do it anymore. the pain is killing me. i can't stuff my feelings inside anymore. they want to float out like selfish little butterflies. but i know i can't have everything. its either you or me. i don't know why it has to be like that. it was us for so long. so many hugs and warm laughs. so many kisses. so many i miss you's. i can't anymore. i'm breaking down. i'm losing. i'm lost. i'm lost without you. there's nowhere to turn. only to bury my head in my pillow and accept what i've done. it will get better. let the months turn into years and it will get better.